Seems like everyone’s on hiatus and not too many people are keeping up to date on their supposed daily blogs. Or people have changed their URLs and I’m too lazy to figure out where people went. Anyway, I thought I shouldn’t complain and add to the lack of posts at the same time, so I decided to give it a shot.
I just got done watching Knocked Up, third movie in the last couple of weeks, eighth if you count DVDs. That’s completely amazing that I found the time to do that, but I know what’s suffering — sleep, which is why it’s 2am and I’m still posting. Surprisingly, I haven’t had as much coffee as I once did, although I had a bunch today. I now vary what I drink, from espressos to iced lattes to Italian cream sodas, which are awesome (try raspberry or strawberry).
The cafe is doing fine, although we’re still in the red. We’re almost pink. Working towards black. Maybe next month if we ever finally get that beer/wine license. I am looking forward to making sangrias in pitchers for people suffering from the heat. And affogatos using mango sorbetto and grappa wine. There’s music every week, but I find that not very many people come out for jazz. I’m sure if we had hyphy music playing, there’d be a gang of folks (literally and figuratively) lined up out the door. But alas, it’s not my steelo and I’d rather lose money than get shot. Imagine, 70 years ago, people probably got shot at jazz clubs. Funny. Will we have ‘upscale’ hyphy lounges in 2077?
Work-wise, I’m in a very ambiguous position. I’m still working part-time in my old job, kind of just being a utility player until my replacement comes in August. But there was an opening at the company that fit me well, and I applied for it, only to find out that the company froze hiring the day after I interviewed. So my boss and the hiring manager devised a plan for me to do the job that I was interviewing for but with me reporting to my current boss. If the company decides to open up hiring, then I’d have a leg up on competition. But if the company doesn’t do that, then in August I’m assed out. To make things even more cloudy, I got a call from another director in the company to tell me he has a temporary job for me if I want it, but it’s only for 5 months. So the dilemma here is:
1. Take temporary 5 month gig that’s full time, knowing it will end. OR
2. Continue with part-time status quo, waiting to see if a job opens for me that will be more ‘permanent’ but risk not having anything by August.
Of course I put permanent in quotes, because what’s a permanent job anyway but a job where you don’t know when you’ll be fired or laid off.
Working part time has its advantages, like being able to work on the cafe more. But it also has the drawback of not generating a whole lot of income. I think I’m going to be even more Jamaican and take both of the choices above with the difference of asking if #1 can be a part-time so together they would be full-time. That way, I can fall back on #1 if #2 doesn’t pan out and I can have the full-time salary I need. The director might not be kosher with that though since if #2 does pan out, he’ll have to find someone for 4 or less months left.
Then there’s real estate, which I still want to get into but I don’t feel comfortable pursuing at this moment because it’s just like starting a business all over again. And starting two businesses at once is difficult and more importantly, costly. So that’s in limbo for some time. That said, I’m going to market myself to immediate family and friends to help people out if needed. I might as well use this lockbox key since it’s sitting at my desk waiting to open up someone’s house.
I am also considering moving out of biotech, but it’s very hard. Now that I spend more time at the cafe, I find that I actually miss the science, the innovation, and the technology. I miss talking to people about cool stuff that solves bad things like cancer or alzheimers. Of course working for a facebook.com or a cafepress.com would be quite cool as well, and those I’m definitely interested in, but I’m not finding tons of luck applying there. Maybe I need to send them my resume, huh? That’s this week’s goal, I swear.
The great thing about being completely busy and stressed is that I’ve lost some pounds without having to work out or diet. The diet comes in the form of not eating because I forget I’m hungry, but I’ll take whatever works. I’ve been biking here and there with Bern, but I’m not as consistent.
If there’s one thing I can say now about owning a business though is that time is not as free as I imagined. It’s hard to plan things out completely for the business because things pop up and just need to get done. So I end up being a slave to the needs of the cafe, which is actually no different from being a slave to the company I work for, and this definitely beats that, but it was still an interesting note for me. One thing I miss is having a weekend. You know how you feel good when Friday rolls around cause you don’t have to go to work for two days. I don’t have that feeling anymore. But the good side is that I don’t have that bad monday feeling that my weekend and fun have just ended and I’m back to the grind. Every day is work day, but I don’t have that dreary feeling. The only stress I have is when people (my employees) don’t do the work I need them to do and I feel like things are falling apart. But that’s mainly because I hate giving up control and I have a hard time delegating, something I am working on now. So yeah, no feeling of anything letting up, which makes it difficult to plan a break or a night out. But like work before, I need to force myself to take a break or else I never will. I’m looking forward to me and Bern’s trip to NY in September. Ready or not, the cafe will have to do without me for a few days.
One area I feel bad about is what I’m putting Bern and specifically my new marriage through. Not that things are bad, actually working with Bern is pretty good. Not too many arguments and fights there. About as many as we probably had while planning a wedding. But I think we’re missing out on that newlywed feeling, if there is such a thing, where you don’t do much but stare into each other’s eyes and silently wonder how things are going to be when you get out of that newlywed feeling. Nope, we’re smack dab out of that and getting things done. I suppose I could have made that last longer than two months before I got us into a new venture. But I’m restless and that wasn’t going to happen anyway. If it wasn’t a cafe, I’m sure something else would have come up that would put us into topsy-turvy. I’m just glad she hasn’t bolted back to single life with all this sh!t happening. (Thanks honey!!!)
Another cool thing about the cafe is being able to work with all these people I wouldn’t be working with in this capacity. Since I’m in corporate biotech world, I wouldn’t ever be able to work with my friends who are in other corporate worlds. But with the cafe, my friends and family are the investors, and by definition, they have a vested interest in this venture. So my mom does the accounting, which allows me to spend some time with her. Jerry, Ed, and my sister are somewhat involved with giving opinions. The only ones I don’t really get to talk to as much is my friend down in LA and my other friend who’s busy hustling other things.
So there you go, my thoughts in the last 40 minutes this late evening/early morning. Peace.